It makes me so sad,

To see girls prancing around on the internet without any clothes on ... barely. I was just on Myspace, looking at a "friend" of mines pictures, and she was in her bathing suit. Taking pictures, and posing all sexy. Then she was in booty shorts and a skirt, making faces and having uncalled for captions. It just makes me so sad to see this, because I know whats going on deep down. I wish more people would reach out to the girls that deal with this, and the girls who are hurting inside without the true love of the Father.

I dont know, it really just hurts. I've been there, and I know what its like. But I also know what its like on the other side, and in this case, the grass is much greener.

I get so upset sometimes.

When people clame to be Christians, but live an un - Christian lifestle. I hear pastors preach on it constantly, but I dont understand why its not hitting anybody smack in the forhead. It hit me, and I changed (praise God). I just wish people would see that its that making others think so lowly of Christianity. I know some people think were not "worthy" or "right" becasue we dont have a religion. I dont believe in religion, not one bit. As my youth pastor told me once: "I think religion is just a trap of the enemy". I still believe that, with every ounce of my heart. This is going to be so short, I just realllly wanted to get that off my chest. But anyways, I dunnnnno. I love the picture of that flower, and it calmed me down.

Vertical,

So, tonight I went to Vertical Student Ministry with my friends Shannan and AnnaElyse. This whole day I was super duper excited about going right? Then like, a couple hours before hand I needed to catch a ride. So I asked Shannan (because she has her license and all) and the way she responded, I took the wrong way. Then I decided I didnt want to go anymore. Then AnnaElyse was texting me saying she didnt know if she was coming because SHE then didnt know if she could get a ride. So, I got even more upset. And just to top that, earlier today my mom was calling me a heffer: when she knows I already have self confidence issues. I couldnt tell if she was joking, but I dont think so considering the fact she never once said she was joking ... so, I took it personally. I was so against going to church tonight. But then, I finally decided I was going to go; when Shannan texted me and said her mom said she could get me. Then we went to church, and I knew why I didnt wanna go: it was the Devil messing with me, and telling me there was no reason for me to go. Im so glad I went though! I got to pray outloud for the National Day of Prayer, and I got prayed for in our small groups. Oh! And I got Skittles! Haha. But seriously, the message was great (it was on Tithing / Giving) and I just loved it. I love that youth group, and Im glad God brought me there.

Lets Just Dance!

Hey, hey: look at me! Haha. So, that ----->
- Is my dance picture from this year (2009 - 2010). Well, for Jazz anyways. Our tap outfit was SO cute, but they wouldn't let us take pictures in them. But I had my recital today, and it was so much fun! During rehearsal, it was extremely stressful though; not even gonna lie. I said to my mom: "Im not dancing next year, not here. I cant stand it." Well, let me just brag about my studio for a moment :)
- Its a Christian studio.
- Today, exactly 25 years ago, the studio owner founded Lets Dance Studio. (Mrs.Lynn, my jazz teacher!)
- Now, May 1st, is oficiaally Lynn ... something day. Haha, its her full name; but I dont quite remember what that is right now :P
But then, as soon as I took my spot on the stage, I knew I wasn't going to be able to give up dancing. My heart was racing, and the lights were flashing: it was just too much of a rush! Haha, then came the tap dance. Our tap dance has been edited SO many times within the past two weeks, we were all so confused today. But it was pretty good: the 4 of us did well :)
I danced when I was in 4th & 5th grade, and I loved it. But when I moved up here, I stopped: because I hated leaving the studio in Florida I attended. But Im so glad I got back into it, its just been such a reminder of the things God has blessed me with. Ah! The passion I have for dancing, its so much fun.