Today was an amazing day, and an absolutely horrific day for me. My wonderful step dad bought me my first car today (a 2003 green Honda Element) & I was definitely excited to drive it home. But when we were headed on the interstate, it started acting up on me. So we pulled over, and switched vehicles. I drove his truck home, and he drove my Honda to the shop to get fixed up.
So around 4:30 I got home and started getting ready for work. I left the house around 5:10 or so, and decided to stop by McDonalds to get dinner because I hadn't eaten anything besides cereal this morning. So, I got my fries & got back on the interstate. I got off at exit 49, Concord Mills Blvd, and pulled up to the stop light about to turn right on Speedway. As the light turn green, and I turned that corner, something life changing happened in that moment.
Like I said, I was driving my step dads truck to work, and today was only my FIRST day driving it: so I wasnt completely used to it yet. I had the truck in 4 wheel drive ... mistake. I gased it around the corner, tapping the gas slightly to hard, and the wheels locked and I completely spun in circles: only two, but that was enough to scare the snot out of me.
I sat there in the truck, in the middle of a lane, because I couldnt move. My body wouldnt move, and the truck wouldnt move. A woman, one of the nicest woman I've ever met, stopped and helped me call the police, my parents, and helped me get the car moving so I could get out of the middle of the road.
I honestly can say, it was traumatic and life changing. Every inch of me was shaking, and I could not stop crying. She stayed with me until my step dad got there, and she told me she would pray for me: and that meant the most to me of anything.
It still just slips my mind how blessed I am, that God saved me in that moment. I kept thinking to myself: "What if someone would have hit my door?" "What if I would have flipped the truck?" & the scariest one to me: "What if I would have flipped over the overpass?"
God saved me, and I cant thank him enough for this one ... I owe him, major.
"Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other" - Chris Tomlin.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Re - kun - sill - e - ay - shun.
RECONCILIATION: n // 1. The re-establishing of cordial relations ; 2. Getting two things to correspond.
Reconciled, reconcilating, reconcilation, reconciliation: I've heard them all used many, many times. Until this morning at church, when Pastor Jay spoke about it & God layed it flat, right on my heart.
The message this morning was about the lost son, reading in Luke chapter 15, versus 1 to about 21 or so. It was an amazing message and had many R words, such as: Rebellion, reconciliation, return, repentance & so, & so forth.
At the very end of the service, we always have an altar call. Pastor Jay today said "If the Holy Spirit is convicting you of any of these situations (R words) come to the front, and have someone pray for you" (obviously not those exact words, but along those lines). As earlier stated, God layed the word reconciliation on my heart. I had no idea what it meant, but I went down there anyways. When I went down there, I was met by a woman I see around the church often. She asked me if there was anything specific I wanted prayer for, and I just told her: "Well, God keeps laying the word reconciliation on my heart ..." So she prayed that over me. Again, I had no idea what this meant. After service, ah - hem: a GREAT service, we headed to Casa Grande to have lunch & while headed there, I asked Cha Cha (a free Q&A text site) the definition of the word & it answered with the definition above.
It was just amazing to me, because earlier today I kept thinking to myself: "Why doesnt God talk to me anymore?" Pfft, no need to think that today! He definitely spoke to me. It was just EXACTLY the right timing, because I've started a new relationship with God, if you will. I realized before that our relationship wasn't build correctly. Well, mine with him wasn't. So, Im re - building (or re - establishing) my relationship with God, and I just find it so amazing that God was laying that on my heart: especially the week before Verge camp :)
So now, as I approach Verge camp, Im definitly going in there with an open heart, an open spirit, and an open mind: because I know God will change me - from the inside out.
Oh how tender Your ways, I long to gaze upon Your beauty Lord: from now until forever more. Oh how lovely Your face, I want to praise You for eternity. For Your my God and You will always be. - Pastor Nathan Smith.
Reconciled, reconcilating, reconcilation, reconciliation: I've heard them all used many, many times. Until this morning at church, when Pastor Jay spoke about it & God layed it flat, right on my heart.
The message this morning was about the lost son, reading in Luke chapter 15, versus 1 to about 21 or so. It was an amazing message and had many R words, such as: Rebellion, reconciliation, return, repentance & so, & so forth.
At the very end of the service, we always have an altar call. Pastor Jay today said "If the Holy Spirit is convicting you of any of these situations (R words) come to the front, and have someone pray for you" (obviously not those exact words, but along those lines). As earlier stated, God layed the word reconciliation on my heart. I had no idea what it meant, but I went down there anyways. When I went down there, I was met by a woman I see around the church often. She asked me if there was anything specific I wanted prayer for, and I just told her: "Well, God keeps laying the word reconciliation on my heart ..." So she prayed that over me. Again, I had no idea what this meant. After service, ah - hem: a GREAT service, we headed to Casa Grande to have lunch & while headed there, I asked Cha Cha (a free Q&A text site) the definition of the word & it answered with the definition above.
It was just amazing to me, because earlier today I kept thinking to myself: "Why doesnt God talk to me anymore?" Pfft, no need to think that today! He definitely spoke to me. It was just EXACTLY the right timing, because I've started a new relationship with God, if you will. I realized before that our relationship wasn't build correctly. Well, mine with him wasn't. So, Im re - building (or re - establishing) my relationship with God, and I just find it so amazing that God was laying that on my heart: especially the week before Verge camp :)
So now, as I approach Verge camp, Im definitly going in there with an open heart, an open spirit, and an open mind: because I know God will change me - from the inside out.
Oh how tender Your ways, I long to gaze upon Your beauty Lord: from now until forever more. Oh how lovely Your face, I want to praise You for eternity. For Your my God and You will always be. - Pastor Nathan Smith.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
He reaches for me!
He reaches for me,
I was in an awful relationship a short while ago, maybe not even a true relationship. We had nothing in common, never liked being around eachother, and argued like crazy: we just liked getting intimate, to be completely honest. I knew it was wrong for me, and I rebelled against God as hard as I could, because I didnt want him to fix me. But the entire time I was in this "relationship" I wanted someone from the church to reach out to me, and talk to me, or ask me: "Samantha, whats wrong? Why havn't you been coming to church lately?" or "Samantha, whats wrong?" But nobody ever did, like I wanted them to. Nobody payed complete attention to me. But last night, while watching Passion of the Christ, I realized God was the one reaching out to me. And asking me: "Samantha, what are you doing?" I remember there was one night we were about to go all the way (sorry, I dont prefer to use the actual word) and I felt God whispering in my ear "This is just another part of your heart your giving away ..." & I backed off, because I remember how bad it had hurt me the first time.
So now, I am out of that awful relationship. I'm running towards God, probably not as good as I could be right now, but Im running towards him.
But in my toughest time, He was there for me, and now I can finally say that with absolute belief.
_+The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. - Psalm 28:7 NIV.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Media.
What I see in the media: Are underdressed woman prancing around trying to be role models.
What I see in the media: Are men, with their pants sagging extremely too low.
What I see in the media: Are Disney Channel starts becoming trashier everyday.
What I see in the media: Are stars blowing up at their husbands / wifes.
What I see in the media: Are people saying its absolutely fine to get knocked up at 16.
What I see in the media: Are people saying its absolutely fine to get hammered at 15.
What I see in the media: Are people pushing the belief of evolution.
What I see in the media: Are 17 year old girls dancing around in a bird cage with a pair of undies & a bra on.
What I see in the media: Is oil spilling in our water, and no one trying to stop it.
What I see in the media: Are people going on TV having to have DNA tests because they cant figure out who their "baby daddy" is.
What I see in the media: Are people starving, and dying.
What I see in the media: ARE SELFISH, STUCK UP, SNOBS.
What I see in the media: Are parents spending 100's of 1,000's of dollars on sweet 16 birthday parties.
What I see in the media: Is a push for legal gay marriages.
What I see in the media: Is the push to remove God from everywhere possible.
What I see in the media: Is drug and gang violence.
What I see in the media: Are people saying sex before marriage is ok.
What I see in the media: Are broken hearts.
What I see in the media: Are kid shows corrupting kids.
What I see in the media: IS COMPLETE DRAMA.
What I see in the media: Makes me not want to live in America.
What I see in the media: Disgusts me.
- I havn't watched much TV lately, only because I've been so busy with color guard and work, and everything else. But when I do watch TV, I'm completely appolled (?) by what I see. I see Lady Gaga (AKA, Lady Gagme) on TV in underwear and a bra, with skanky heels booty dancing left and right - and people, sadly, encourage that. The same with Miley Cyrus. It makes me extremely sad that she was once a Disney Channel star, to be honest. When I was younger and first started watching "Hannah Montana", she was somewhat of a role model to me. She's the one that got me into acting, and liking those sorts of things. Now? Im just disgusted by her honestly. Sure, she may have a "nice" voice, but she's extremely far from innocent. Her new music video? No, its gross -
What I see in the media: Are men, with their pants sagging extremely too low.
What I see in the media: Are Disney Channel starts becoming trashier everyday.
What I see in the media: Are stars blowing up at their husbands / wifes.
What I see in the media: Are people saying its absolutely fine to get knocked up at 16.
What I see in the media: Are people saying its absolutely fine to get hammered at 15.
What I see in the media: Are people pushing the belief of evolution.
What I see in the media: Are 17 year old girls dancing around in a bird cage with a pair of undies & a bra on.
What I see in the media: Is oil spilling in our water, and no one trying to stop it.
What I see in the media: Are people going on TV having to have DNA tests because they cant figure out who their "baby daddy" is.
What I see in the media: Are people starving, and dying.
What I see in the media: ARE SELFISH, STUCK UP, SNOBS.
What I see in the media: Are parents spending 100's of 1,000's of dollars on sweet 16 birthday parties.
What I see in the media: Is a push for legal gay marriages.
What I see in the media: Is the push to remove God from everywhere possible.
What I see in the media: Is drug and gang violence.
What I see in the media: Are people saying sex before marriage is ok.
What I see in the media: Are broken hearts.
What I see in the media: Are kid shows corrupting kids.
What I see in the media: IS COMPLETE DRAMA.
What I see in the media: Makes me not want to live in America.
What I see in the media: Disgusts me.
- I havn't watched much TV lately, only because I've been so busy with color guard and work, and everything else. But when I do watch TV, I'm completely appolled (?) by what I see. I see Lady Gaga (AKA, Lady Gagme) on TV in underwear and a bra, with skanky heels booty dancing left and right - and people, sadly, encourage that. The same with Miley Cyrus. It makes me extremely sad that she was once a Disney Channel star, to be honest. When I was younger and first started watching "Hannah Montana", she was somewhat of a role model to me. She's the one that got me into acting, and liking those sorts of things. Now? Im just disgusted by her honestly. Sure, she may have a "nice" voice, but she's extremely far from innocent. Her new music video? No, its gross -
I mean really? Do you see this? She's 17, which makes me sad & extremely upset that the media could do something like this to her. The same with Vanessa Hudgens, Brittany Spears: so many other starts have just been turned and tweaked by the media. It also upsets me, because this is rubbing off onto MY generation. The generation IM growing up in. And it doesnt make me happy, and I will fight against it: with allll my wittle will power:
& that, is what I think about the _ Media.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
In Samanthas Head,
There are currently many things. I just dont even know where to start.
Well, Im still on my vacation: and I just dont wanna go home. I painted my grandpas fingernail (singular, nail) hott hott pink & he loves it. Im somewhat in the middle of the book "Breaking Dawn" = one of the best Twilight books evaa. I've probably gained like, THOUSANDS of pound since I've been here. I need a new phone, mine is just so ghetto. I've been getting up so early lately, its awfully weird. After "bonding" with my family so far this vacation, I've realized how ... different ... they are. Somewhat in a bad way, but dont get me wrong: I love them alottt. My moms friend Deanna has a blind child named Jessie (who is so sweet!); we were all swimming today and my sister accidently hit her in the face & left a gash right below her lip on the left side; scariest thing.
Well thats it for now, since Im leaving the house to go back to the hotel.
More later.
Much love*.
Well, Im still on my vacation: and I just dont wanna go home. I painted my grandpas fingernail (singular, nail) hott hott pink & he loves it. Im somewhat in the middle of the book "Breaking Dawn" = one of the best Twilight books evaa. I've probably gained like, THOUSANDS of pound since I've been here. I need a new phone, mine is just so ghetto. I've been getting up so early lately, its awfully weird. After "bonding" with my family so far this vacation, I've realized how ... different ... they are. Somewhat in a bad way, but dont get me wrong: I love them alottt. My moms friend Deanna has a blind child named Jessie (who is so sweet!); we were all swimming today and my sister accidently hit her in the face & left a gash right below her lip on the left side; scariest thing.
Well thats it for now, since Im leaving the house to go back to the hotel.
More later.
Much love*.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Vacation.
Has basically, in a single word been, amazing!
We stayed in a Comfort Inn for 2 days, then went to a place called Zehnders (knock off of Great Wolf Lodge). But hey, it was super fun. First night there, I was so so bored. I mean, I have two younger cousins & two younger siblings: so I needed someone to hang with! I took my sister Emma down the two BIGGGEST slides there, and man was it awesome! We got into the water park early, and stayed until it closed: yeah, we got our $$$ worth. Then this morning we went back about an hour after it opened (I fell asleep after eating breakfast ... oops). But then, I took my youngest Cousin Hope down a little "kiddie" slide. We went down over, and over, and over again. The lifeguards got used to us ... honestly. We then went to my other cousins house. Well, they're my moms cousins ... not exactly mine. But anywhooos, they have a cabin on the lake, and we visited them there. Now, Im at my auntie K's hizzous just hanging around.
My grandfather bought me a parfait from McDonalds, hmm.
Oh, I completely forgot to mention we went to an MLB game :D Detroit Tigers vs. Seattle Mariners. Yeah, we lost /:
Oh welllllllll, thats been my vacation pre Chicago :)
We stayed in a Comfort Inn for 2 days, then went to a place called Zehnders (knock off of Great Wolf Lodge). But hey, it was super fun. First night there, I was so so bored. I mean, I have two younger cousins & two younger siblings: so I needed someone to hang with! I took my sister Emma down the two BIGGGEST slides there, and man was it awesome! We got into the water park early, and stayed until it closed: yeah, we got our $$$ worth. Then this morning we went back about an hour after it opened (I fell asleep after eating breakfast ... oops). But then, I took my youngest Cousin Hope down a little "kiddie" slide. We went down over, and over, and over again. The lifeguards got used to us ... honestly. We then went to my other cousins house. Well, they're my moms cousins ... not exactly mine. But anywhooos, they have a cabin on the lake, and we visited them there. Now, Im at my auntie K's hizzous just hanging around.
My grandfather bought me a parfait from McDonalds, hmm.
Oh, I completely forgot to mention we went to an MLB game :D Detroit Tigers vs. Seattle Mariners. Yeah, we lost /:
Oh welllllllll, thats been my vacation pre Chicago :)
Saturday, July 3, 2010
$PEC!F!C$;
LIKES:
*CHRISTIAN BOYS. Shaggy hair. Short hair (but not a buzz cut). A reader. A boy who's romantic. Someone who will do random things, just to have fun. Someone who can joke around and be funny. Blue eyes. Green eyes. Boys with an impressive personality. Boys who speak different languages. A boy who wouldnt mind laying in bed watching movies all day. Boys who make the decisions. A boy who will take care of me when Im sick. A boy who would go to Christian concerts with me. A boy who will travel random places. Boys with good grades. Boys who can do their own thing. Boys with dreams. Boys with accents. Boys with 4 - 8 packs :) Boys who dont cuss, and use good grammar. Boys with moderate tattoos &/or peircings. Tan boys. Boys that wear nice cologne, and have style. Boys who grab their girlfriends hand all secretly and cutely. Boys who can bring their girl around their friends / family. Boys who arn't afraid to act "whipped", because they care about their girl. Boys who can trust their girls. Boys that stare, and tell you your beautiful. Boys that show random acts of kindness. Boys that take their girls to sporting events. Boys who take their girls to the beach. Boys who take their girlfriends to amusemnt parks. Boys that play drums. Boys who take crazy pictures with their girlfriends, just to have fun. Boys who take their girls out to get ice cream randomly. Boys who slip their arms around their girls waists (and from behind!). Boys who drive trucks (or nice cars). Boys with nice hand - writing. Boys that bring their girlfriends flowers at random times. Boys that listen to Christian music. Boys that wear abstinence rings.
*Boys who will act crazy with their girlfriends.
DISLIKES:
Athiests. Boys who dont use deoderant. Boys who act dumb, and like they dont care. Boys who sag their pants lower than their booty. Boys with tons of peircings. Boys who get offended to easily. BOYS WHO JUST WANT SOME. Boys who abuse girlfriends (ah - hem). Boys who make the girls decide everything. Boys who act diferently around diferent people. Boys who depend on their parents. Boys who drink / smoke. BOYS THAT CUSS. Boys that get frustrated ... quickly. Boys who dont act like they care.
*CHRISTIAN BOYS. Shaggy hair. Short hair (but not a buzz cut). A reader. A boy who's romantic. Someone who will do random things, just to have fun. Someone who can joke around and be funny. Blue eyes. Green eyes. Boys with an impressive personality. Boys who speak different languages. A boy who wouldnt mind laying in bed watching movies all day. Boys who make the decisions. A boy who will take care of me when Im sick. A boy who would go to Christian concerts with me. A boy who will travel random places. Boys with good grades. Boys who can do their own thing. Boys with dreams. Boys with accents. Boys with 4 - 8 packs :) Boys who dont cuss, and use good grammar. Boys with moderate tattoos &/or peircings. Tan boys. Boys that wear nice cologne, and have style. Boys who grab their girlfriends hand all secretly and cutely. Boys who can bring their girl around their friends / family. Boys who arn't afraid to act "whipped", because they care about their girl. Boys who can trust their girls. Boys that stare, and tell you your beautiful. Boys that show random acts of kindness. Boys that take their girls to sporting events. Boys who take their girls to the beach. Boys who take their girlfriends to amusemnt parks. Boys that play drums. Boys who take crazy pictures with their girlfriends, just to have fun. Boys who take their girls out to get ice cream randomly. Boys who slip their arms around their girls waists (and from behind!). Boys who drive trucks (or nice cars). Boys with nice hand - writing. Boys that bring their girlfriends flowers at random times. Boys that listen to Christian music. Boys that wear abstinence rings.
*Boys who will act crazy with their girlfriends.
DISLIKES:
Athiests. Boys who dont use deoderant. Boys who act dumb, and like they dont care. Boys who sag their pants lower than their booty. Boys with tons of peircings. Boys who get offended to easily. BOYS WHO JUST WANT SOME. Boys who abuse girlfriends (ah - hem). Boys who make the girls decide everything. Boys who act diferently around diferent people. Boys who depend on their parents. Boys who drink / smoke. BOYS THAT CUSS. Boys that get frustrated ... quickly. Boys who dont act like they care.
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