High School.

High school flies by so fast. If you are a freshman, sophomore, or junior reading this: please take everything I say into deep consideration. Please. DO NOT WASTE YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CAREER. First off, put your grades before anything. As lame and cliche a it sounds: DO IT. By the time senior year rolls around, you'll be happy you maintained straight A's instead of hanging out with cute boys. Make sure you do a sport. Its SO much fun to do a highschool sport! It's diferent than any club sport, and especially middle school sports. It's so much fun! Don't waste you're time. Every moment literally counts in high school. Make the most of EVERY situation. Go to dances, football games. Participate in pep assemblies, make your name known. Don't be embarassed at anything, always be happy and excited and ready to take on anything at school! I say all this, because I wasted my entire senior year. I have bipolar disorder (pretttty durn sure), and I let it control every part of me. Obviously, it's something that's hard to deal with, but deep inside me I know I could help it: and I didn't. I wasted so much time this year on sports and being home depresed because I never had time to do homework, study, work anything. Just please, if you're reading this, MAKE THE MOST OF THE TIME YOU HAVE. High school flies by, and I'm about to cry thinking about it. I remember my first day. I remember my first year. My second, third and thi past year. Please, make it something to remember <3

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People have been asking me to blog lately, so here is me blogging. I'm sure it's fairly obvious, but I've taken quite a fall back from God. I've actually slipped into a depression, and I think it's more on the side of bipolar disorder. I've got a few different sicknesses going on, and I can't cure them. I have tendonitis in both wrists, and some huge self confidence issues. Umph. I think that's all physically/mentally wrong. But I guess on the bright side, I've chosen a college. I'll be heading off to Aquinas College next year, probably majoring in business and minoring in theology or dance, so that I can become a dance instructor one day. I also have cheerleading tryouts on Sunday for this school...I'm pretty sure I"ll make it. I really like the coach there, and the team members: they're so sweeet. Prom was last night: it was awful. I had a lot of fun getting ready (even though it was stresssful), had fun @ dinner with everyone, and had a good time with Zach. We we're there for about an hour, and left. Honeslty, we left because I couldn't handle the truth...we went up to dance, but none of Zach's friends wanted to be around me. So, we decided to leave. We just went to his house and watched a movie and slept. It was nice...having a sleepover. Part of me wishes we would have stayed, because I feel like I wasted $400 and my senior prom, but at the same time, my depression was just so bad that I couldn't stand knowing nobody wanted me there: I had to leave. Tomorrow is senior skip day @ Western, and I think I"m going to participate. I ate this piece of cake 30 minutes ago, and I feel so sick to my stomach. Sometimes I really feel like I"m pointless. Zachry gets angry when I say that, but I really can't help it. I miss who I was, and I hate everything I've become. I think that's it for now. Dissapointing, huh?