Trust Exercise With God.

So, I was at Vertical tonight (my youth group), and Mrs.Brooke / Dallas preached on Esther. Mrs.Brooke was talking about that God will give us assignments to "build" our trust, and I asked for that. I asked for trust.
So as Im coming home from youth, Gods like "Drive".
Scared as I was, I listened and obeyed. I drove for about 20 - 25 minutes just listening to my worship music and driving: windows down and everything :)
After about 15 minutes of listening to him tell me where to go, I had NO idea where I was and I was absolutely frightened.
I was like "God, where are you taking me?" He didnt answer.
After a few turns he said: "Home".
And I said to him: "But I have no idea where I am. Where do I go?"
So he says: "Turn left ... and right ...".


So on and so forth until I got home. I thought it may have been pointless, but good thing I listened to God :)

She,

Is oficially my role model. Britt Nicole, yes indeed. I heard about her first I think through Kayla Yarborough. I heard some of her music on New LIfe 91.9, and I fell in love with it! Not just for the fact that her voice is amazing but just the things she sings about lift me up.

I was reading her personal blog earlier, and she was talking about how she went to ... (somewhere) ... on a missions trip. She had updates, and pictures, and was just talking about how God got her through: she is amazing.

I also love how real she is. Like, she talked to my youth pastor for hours (awhile ago) and she danced at my dance studio. Porter (my youth pastor) was telling me how she had dreams of doing what shes doing now, and its just so amazing to see that she's actually doing it.

Her music lifts me up, and she speaks real.

Britt Nicole, is my role model.

Another list.

Things that upset me:

Teenagers getting pregnant. BP getting blamed for the entire oil spill. Christians not living out the call. Liars. Cheaters. Rude people. Cussing. Eye rolling. Abusive parents. Satan. Heartbreak. Broken families. Broken lives. Jerks. People not being led to Christ. Hurtful things in the church. Unhappiness. Vandersloot. Death. Outrage. Violence. Animal abuse. Abortion. Murder. Rape. Car crashes. Stereotypes. Drugs. Teenagers getting wasted. Students dropping out of high school. Homelessness.



Its what hurts the most -

Simple Answer?

Ever since my hearts been broken, I've heard so many things on how to get over it.

"Just date someone else, that'll make you stop thinking about him".

"Just give it to God already, and He'll take care of you".

"Just pray, and pray and have faith".

"Talk to him about it, and try and become friends".

"Time heals a broken heart".

The list just goes on, and on, and on: these would be the most repeated.

Ive tried every one of these things, and yet it still hasn't worked. In a way, I like the last one: Time heals a broken heart. But that just scares me, continuously. Theres so much open space there for things to come in, especiallllllllly unecessary boys. But people also tell me that open space is for God, and thats space for him to come in and deal with it and help me there. I just get so flustered, and distracted in those times that I just dont want to focus to be honest.

I let the memories flow, as often as I want. I promised God a couple nights ago that I would stop, and that he can take control of my mind. In some ways, its absolutely working. But in others, its not. Instead of thinking of the boy that broke my heart, Im thinking of other boys ... and I lust after them. When can it end?

I guess it never helped either that I had a cold heart towards him. But he was also the same way towards me, is that horrible as well? I guess we had our reasons, but we also had our reasons to be nice: were siblings through Christ (which may be akward to say at the moment). My heart has begun to soften up more and more over the past year, but I wish I could say that I completely forgive him: yet I cant say it quite yet. That, is something Im most certainly working on.

I ask the question "Is there a simple answer to a broken heart?" No, I dont think there is. Not when your so close to someone, then have them ripped away. Yes, time heals a broken heart ... yes, God heals a broken heart ... but I guess, you have to work at it also.

My List.

I have been inspired to make a list of things I'd like to do this summer. This list includes:

- Staying up alll night with a friend, doing anything and everything.

- Getting to be close friends with someone never expected.

- Stay at Carowinds alllllllll day long.

- Lead someone fully to Christ.

- Make a difference in someones life.

- Lose a few pounds :)

- Go to the beach all day.

- Become patient.

& completely get over my heartbreak.

Yeah, Im excited.

:)

Who's fault is it truly?

I've been watching the news alot more lately than I usually would, and the oil spill still seems to be the main thing they talk about. Everyone on there is just bashing BP and blaming it all on them. Sure, its their fault to some extent. But isn't it also the other off shore drilling companies faults as well? You'd think that with as many as we have ( more than 366 in the United States ) that atleast 1 of those companies would have a solution to this? Really now, you cant start something like that an not expect something like this to happen. So ultimately, I believe its all of their faults. Instead of all of them blaming BP, and trashing them on the telivision, they need to be helping a solution. Its killing to many sea animals, and its beginning to harm humans.

And that, is my take on it.

Lately, by Samantha Alvarado.

( I would just like to start by giving props to that beautiful fish face. Thank you, Auriell Dunnick, for the inspiration).
I dont even remember the last time I blogged, which may be sad and may be good. I guess I've just been lazy ... I am known for that. I also havn't had much to talk about I s'pose. But I was just going to say what been going on lately in the oh so fabulous life of moi.
I get my license tomorrow! (June 9th, of 2010.) I also got my dance video, haha. Our tap dance was horrendous! I seriously, am embarassed for us allllll. :,( I've been working so much lately. Starting next Tuesday, I'll be working 5 wonderful shifts ... 5 days a week. Yay! I went to the pool yesterday and got tan! Well, burnt actually. I was out there for an hour and 15 minutes. It was great. Haha, like for the first 5 minutes I would stay on my back, then I would flip to my stomach, then Id get in the pool and cool off. It was a great idea, I must say :) Besides the fact Im burnt. Gaah. I finished my examssss today! Starting from my freshman year, I've taken 16 exams: blaaah. I got a 90 on my theatre one, and probably the same on the Bible exam. Im sure I passed them all, cause I havn't been informed of failing. Yahooodie! (Your welcome, Hannah Lamprecht.)

Alright. Well, thats all thats "new". Keep your eyes open for more, legit postings. :)