Simple Answer?

Ever since my hearts been broken, I've heard so many things on how to get over it.

"Just date someone else, that'll make you stop thinking about him".

"Just give it to God already, and He'll take care of you".

"Just pray, and pray and have faith".

"Talk to him about it, and try and become friends".

"Time heals a broken heart".

The list just goes on, and on, and on: these would be the most repeated.

Ive tried every one of these things, and yet it still hasn't worked. In a way, I like the last one: Time heals a broken heart. But that just scares me, continuously. Theres so much open space there for things to come in, especiallllllllly unecessary boys. But people also tell me that open space is for God, and thats space for him to come in and deal with it and help me there. I just get so flustered, and distracted in those times that I just dont want to focus to be honest.

I let the memories flow, as often as I want. I promised God a couple nights ago that I would stop, and that he can take control of my mind. In some ways, its absolutely working. But in others, its not. Instead of thinking of the boy that broke my heart, Im thinking of other boys ... and I lust after them. When can it end?

I guess it never helped either that I had a cold heart towards him. But he was also the same way towards me, is that horrible as well? I guess we had our reasons, but we also had our reasons to be nice: were siblings through Christ (which may be akward to say at the moment). My heart has begun to soften up more and more over the past year, but I wish I could say that I completely forgive him: yet I cant say it quite yet. That, is something Im most certainly working on.

I ask the question "Is there a simple answer to a broken heart?" No, I dont think there is. Not when your so close to someone, then have them ripped away. Yes, time heals a broken heart ... yes, God heals a broken heart ... but I guess, you have to work at it also.