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I didn't know what else to call it ... I may change the name later. I dont know. What I do know, is that God wants me to write: so, thats what Imma do.



This past week has been rough for me. Theres been alot going on, and we just got back from house/school hunting in Michigan. While we were there I had a re-occuring (sp?) leg pain going on. My kneecap was like, popping out of socket or something, and my hip (both on my right leg) just had this horrible stinging pain going on. It literally felt like my hip bone was trying to poke out of my skin. Owch.


I met with a friend of mine and we discussed a few other things, and she really helped me realize what was going on: the devil, duh. I mean, I knew it was him. But when Bekah was telling me some of the things she was telling me, it was intense. Like, good intense. She was speaking things into me that were just amazing. I didn't realize it at the time, but now I find myself declaring those over me allll the time. Ha.



But what I was really wanting to write about, was something that happened a moment ago. This morning I woke up, and I just felt this spirit of depression floating around me. For anyone who knows me, I've been SET FREE from depression, so it was weird that this was coming back. Theres just been a situation that the devil has been using to hurt me, and its honestly been working. I went to church this morning, and the message was amazing! I felt the spirit of the Lord, and He even had a word for me ... which dealt with the situation the devil had been throwing at me. Then I went over to First Assembly, which was a great service as well. The situation got worse though (READREADREAD! Im NOT saying First Assembly was the reason, other things. Haha.) The service was great, but when I walked out the same spirit came over me. As I got in the car I put in the new CD I had burned, and started listening to "Inside", Jared Anderson. Such an amazing song. But nothing changed. I was singing the words, but didnt feel anything.

When I got home, I came in and went to my room. After cleaning up a little bit, I was goign to sit down and start my homework. But instead, I just fell on my bed and began to cry. Something inside my heart was just producing so much pain. The "situation", I'm just going to call it, had seriously been hurting me SO bad. It reminded me of previous pains that a same "situation" had brought, and I absolutely knew in my heart I DID NOT want to deal with that again. So as I was laying on my bed, I cried out to God and asked Him to just help me. He led me to Jeremiah 3:4 which says "Have you not just now called to me, My Father, you are the friend of my youth-". Gotta admit, I was confused. He spoke to me again and led me to Jonah 1:6 which says "The captain came and said to him what are you doing sound asleep? Get up, call on your God! Perhaps the god will spare us a thought so that we do not perish". So, I called on God again. Reciting His word, and speaking positive things over myself. I had my iPod on, and the song "I Am" by Mark Schultz came on. The Lord just spoke to me through it. I remembered the line "I am the mighty God your Father" speak to me so strong through that it was amazing! I felt compelled to just stay laying on my bed for a moment, and as I did the song "Starry Night" by Chris August came on. One of the last lines of the song says "I've given my life to the only one who gave me hope when I had none". Stuck out to me, of course. The Lord just truly spoke to me through those songs and He's just given me peace now. I mean, the situation is there ... yes. But I've decided I'm NOT going to let it affect me, or hurt me. I'm going to walk in what God says, and if the situation works out? So be it. If not? So be it!



Psalm 84 - "How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of hosts! My soul longs, indeed it faints for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh sing for joy to the living God".

"I am the fount of living water, the risen son of Man, the healer of the broken. & when you cry I am, your Savior and Redeemer, who bore the sin of man, the author and perfector, beginning and the end: I am".

So, I'm in ?Michigan, for anyone who doesn't know. My apologies if some words are spelt weird, I got a Droid for my birthday and it spells words for me. Haha. But just a slight update, its been rainy the past two days ... yuck. We looked at a scholar today named western high school. Its really nice, actually. 800 kids, AP classes,honors classes, and just about everything I want. Haha. Its nice up here, I think I'm really gonna like it. I can't wait to see what God does up here!
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Just an observation of mine.

Pastor Eric has said it, and Pator Porter has said it, along with many others I'm sure. But once you state your a Christian, people will watch you for it. Correct? I've noticed that everyone I know that has called themselves a Christian, I have begun (began?) watching ... heartbreaking to say, but I'm dissapointed in what I see.


Its been brought to my attention MANY times that everyone makes mistakes, and you know, I know that everyone makes mistakes. Dude, I'm like the master of mistakes over here: you name it, I've probably done it at some point or another. But there are TONS of people I see throughout the day who will come to the MMATP circles in the morning, pray a tremendous prayer, walk away, and cuss like sailors. I'm not writing this blog to bash on those people, but I'm writing this to make a point. The point? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THE ARMY OF CHRIST?




Yes, tough times come and things get rought, which is happening to us right now. But thats when you just have to keep the faith, and live strong off of God's word. I honestly don't understand how people can say one thing, but do another. Hmm. Know what this makes me think of?


"Hey wait a minute, if they both came from the same pot, how could one be hot and one be cold? Weird." <---- A line from the play were doing in theatre, ironic? Nah, God.


God is our pot, and we all came from Him. He created us, named us, FIRST loved us, and knows everything about us. What is happening to the army of Christ? Dude, He's coming back soon ... does that scare anyone? I wouldn't wanna be cussing when He comes down on a cloud, I tell you what. Theres so much we could be fighting for, especialllly at Northwest, I see it all the time. But nobody wants to step out, including me. I'll admit, I'm nervous ... but if God pushes me hard enough, you bet your butttons I'll do what He wants. Michigan? I'm fighting for it. I'm going up there to fight for souls. What does the army do? They fight, I think for souls. Haha.


I'm going off on tangents, but anyone who knows me knows that this is how I write ... especially Mrs.Stavrakas, she knows that. Anywhoos, its just something I've noticed myself doing. I have "Christians" in every single one of my classes, alright maybe not first period, but my other three classes all are filled with people who consider theirselves Christians. It honestly just breaks my heart to see the things their doing, and all I can say is that the devil has a slick way with his moves. AEKLJF 39UEL!@#$%^?AJGD(*&^yhj. Gosh, I hate him.



I pray for them, all day everyday, everytime I see them I pray for them. I pray that God would sweep over them with His love, mercy, and strength to stand up for what they know is right. I love them, no matter what, they are my brothers/sisters in Christ.




Just a small, small observation.




Lead me to the cross, where Your love poured out. Bring me to my knees, Lord I lay me down. Rid me of myself I belong to you, oh lead me.

Jesus said to his disciples: “If anyone wants to come after me, let him disown himself and pick up his cross and continually follow me. For whoever wants to save his soul will lose it; but whoever loses his soul for my sake will find it. Mathew 16:24-25.

Veterans Day, 11/11/2010.

Last night I was at Zach's house, because we were watching movies ... band geeks.
We decided to watch "Taken", which I've only seen 7,000 times: but I absolutely love that movie. I never really thought about it, but Leah happened to bring it to my attention, that we don't have sex trafficking / human trafficking in America.


& I realized that I'm relally thankful for or veterans to be fighting for us like that.

My grandpa was in the war (I'm honestly not sure which one ...), my friend Garrett just left for training, my best friends dad is in the army, and my uncles have all served in the marines. I never really thought about how special that is, but looking at America, I realize it now.


I'm thankful that we dont have trafficking here, because we have people fighting for rights. I'm thankful we can have freedom of religion, because we have people fighting for our rights. I'm so thankful we have freedom of speech, freedom to petition, freedom to protest, and freedom of the press: because we have people fightng for our rights.




I'm thankful for America, and the freedom we have. I hear alot of people (Yes, I've said it once myself as well) saying "I HATE AMERICA. WHY CANT I LIVE IN LIKE CANADA OR SOMETHING?" But you know what? America may not be perfect, but if you think about it, we have people trying to do whats best FOR US. Not alot of places have that you know.




So anyways, I'm very thankful for our veterans, and those who have/are serving. I send a prayer to the families who have lost family members in the war, as those were brave hearts. Again I say: thank you veterans!



"My contry 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrims pride, from every mountain side: let freedom ring".

Hey, prayer warriors.

For anyone who reads this, let me start off by saying this isn't a post like my usual posts. Its more of a request, actually: just my for-warning.



As some friends of mine know, I am moving to Michigan. We have decided in December of this year, we will be moving to Jackson, MI. I'm a bit nervous, as it is my junior year, but at the same time I'm extremely excited.


My parents asked me if I was willing to move, because my stepdad was offered an amazing job up there, MI. So, I prayed about it and really didn't know what to do. Pastor Jay was preaching a moment entitled "Hinges: Lifes Pivitol Moments". One of the points made were "Sometimes, hinge moments are hidden in unusual tasks". So, one of my lovely coworkers (Mama Kimberly) told me to stop botherin' Jesus about it, and embrace my hinge moment: so, I did. Haha. I decided that I was willing to lay down everything here, and do what God wants me to do up there.

That being said, I'm asking for prayer as of now.



Prayer for: God to just open up a school, house, job, and sports for me. To pray & agree with me that He will lead me to a church where I can call home. That God would give me opportunities to minister there, and at school; and that He will also just guide my steps as to my future. For my parents, that God will give me divine opportunities to lead them to Christ. For my siblings, that they will be comfortable in their move and will make new friends and find Christ. That Holy Spirit will just guide me and help me through this, and to NOT worry about what I'm "leaving behind" but what I'm embracing. Lastly, and for those in the area where we are moving: that God will prepare them for whats coming.


Thank you guys who will agree with me in prayer, and will continue to pray for me. It means more than anything I could say through words :)

The 1st of November.

All I've done today is clean; not that I have a problem with cleaning, but I've only been outside once today and that was too push my brother on the swing. Oh, and I babysat today. It is currently 3:23, and I woke up from my nape 20 minutes ago. Like I said, I cleaned today. I did the dishes, put away all my laundry, my brothers laundry, and my sisters laundry, switched out the loads, cleaned up the living room and my bedroom, had my siblings clean their rooms, and yeah. It was a pretty eventful morning. After having nothing to do, I decided to lay down on the couch and sleep: sigh, it was a marvelous nap actually.



Yesterday at church Pastor Jay was preaching a message entitled "Conquering Opposition", week 4. He was talking about Nehamiah (sp) and how they were conquering something. I dont remember the details, but I remember the big points. Haha. Pastor Jay related it back to the church by saying that sometimes, we just need to give and stop taking in. By taking in, we were going to become Spiritually obese. Today, I felt like I was giving. I did so much for my family today, and it made me feel amazing inside. Usually on a day like this, I would lay around and do homework or read, or stay online (though I was online today, I wasn't online allll day). I also worked out, so that was also something I did for myself. But as for giving, it was great giving to my family!




And now, I am going to get ready, and then head to Madis in a few :)







Light light light up the sky, You light up the sky to show me that You are with me.