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I just don't know what to title these anymore. I give up.



It's currently 10:40 on Memorial Day of 2010, and I'm sitting in bed. See, our air conditioning is broken, causing me not to be able to sleep. It makes me wonder what its like for those in other countries who don't even have homes...I've had a lot of realizations this weekend. I went to the lake with Zach & his family, and I had too much fun. It felt really nice to just get out and go somewhere besides Jackson...ew. But I just had a lot of things just hit me all at once. I don't know if I'll be exposing them all, due to some of the folks that read this, but just a lot of things came to mind.

I'd been struggling a lot with my weight, and I feel like it's coming back. Hmph. Flippping summertime $%^%^&* If y'all could pray for that, that'd be AMAZING.
I'm also starting my cheerleading workouts, which have been to good for me. They seem to be getting me in good shape, and I just love it. We run a mile at every practice, then we stretch for about 30-40 minutes, do our jumps/heel stretches/chants, then we stunt/tumble, depending on the days, then we done. It's so much fun, because our new coach is BEYOND strict, and I just love it. She's an amazing coach. Oh, prayer for that would be majorly appreciated as well. It's gonna cost a lot, and I'm pretty sure I'll be making the team (crossing fingers).
Along wtih colorguard. I made the guard a couple weeks ago. We haven't done anything with it, but I made it. Prayer as well for that please. I think it'll be a couple hundred, considering I HAVE TO play clarinet anyways next year. That's one of the things I'm not so fond of with Western bands. Band class is a full year long, and I have to play my instrument 2nd semester. UGH!@#$%^& Oh, prayer for a job as well please. That'd be fantasticcccc.

I just miss Northwest, and I really miss the swing of things. Everything made sense, and worked out perfectly. But I'm done complaining...for now.

I'm so thankful for Memorial Day. I Love that we have veterans. To be honest, I never really thought about them until this year. I have America at War 5th hour, and just being in that class this year has TRULY opened my eyes. I love it, and am so glad that we have soldiers willing to give their lives for our country. My heart is forever grateful < 3




Yepp. Well, I'm hott and I don't feel good. I think I'll try and go to sleep now. Let's see how this goes. BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Oh, please pray for my spiritual growth as well if your reading this and decide to pray for me about stuff...it'd be so so so appreciated. :)



Mathew 16:13 "Now when Jesus came into the district of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, "Who do people say that the Son of Man is?" And they said, "Some say John the Baptist, but others Elijah, and still others Jeremiah or one of the prophets." He said to them, "But who do you say that I am?" Simpon Peter answered, "You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God." And Jesus answered him, "Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah! For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my Father in heaven. And I tell you, you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not prevail against it."

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I've come to the realization that I can't please everyone.


I mean, I'm not a "people pleaser", persay. But I never EVER wanna give someone a reason to hate me. So, I don't know what exactly you would call me ... but I just don't like people hating me, and I just wanna make people happy. But last night at work, it truly hit me, that no matter how nice I am to people, they can still hate you for no apparent reason.

I'm pretty much always nice to the people I work with (minus Jorge & Ricardo, but ya know.) and last night, I heard one of the other girls just gossiping like it was her job right in earshot of me. She probably did it on purpose, but what bothers me is that she was acting fine when she came back up: that's one thing I absolutely can't stand. If you're gonna sin, and gossip, don't play pretend when you go to see the person. !@#$%^&*( Drives me crazy I tell ya.


Well, now that I think about it, I'm not 100% positive she was talking about me, but I'm abut 97% positive she was, just because of the things she was saying that somewhat referred to MOI. But back to my main point...I've just realized I can't please everyone. I don't understand why, but I can't. Maybe God has it that way for a reason. Maybe the devil is just being stupid, and playing that to his advantage. I just don't know.


But what I do know, is that I will always be a disciple, and I will always treat my neighbor with kindness, and love them as Jesus has loved me.

Just a thought.

Anyone who listens to a Christian radio station has heard Britt Nicole. Whether the song be Headphones, Lost Get Found, or Have Your Way. But one of my absolute favorite songs by Britt Nicole, is Set the World On Fire. I first heard it at my sophmore dance recital, and downloaded it. It didn't really hit me, the lyrics anyways, until the middle of my junior year, when I'd finally given my life over to God. Well, as I'm sitting here attempting my French homework, I turned on my iPod and that song ccame up, & it really made me think. I'd thought about the TONS of girls on Facebook book I'd seen, who's statuses said:
Take my dreams, come and give them wings. Lord with You, there's nothing I cannot do.

If you haven't heard the lyrics, check them out: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/brittnicole/settheworldonfire.html



But seeing their statuses, and hearing the llyrics, this question popped into my head: how many of us actually live that out?


Like, the lyrics. "I wanna feed the hungry children, and reach across the farthest land. Until the broken there is healing, and mercy in the fathers hands." Or "My hands, my feet, my everything. My life, my love: Lord use me". God gives us SO many opportunities in a day to minister, that I probabloy couldn't even count them on 10 hands, we just choose to pass them up because we're scared. Don't get me wrong, I can be the same way, and I'm really trying to conquer that fear. I just think we need to change our schools, and communities. Heck, we even need to change our churches! This just popped into my head, and I had to let it out.


"He's doing a new thing, so He's singing a new song. People get ready: Jesus is coming".

Yeah, I'm still here.

Someone brought to my attention today, that I haven't blogged in ages, which happens to be correct. I've been really busy lately, and quite a bit back slidden. But I'm back on track, and back on blogging!


Today is Wednesday, May 4th, and I have a cold. I began back sliding a couple weeks ago, but Pastor Andy's message really gripped me on Sunday night, praise the Lord. I've really just begun a new walk, if you will, to a place of reconciliation with the Lord again, and I is EXCITED. !@#$%^&*

I really just realized today how mean kids are. Like, in my oral comm class, this kid was doing a presentation and the kids around me were just like, laughing at him. It made me mad, I guess because I absolutely HATE seeing kids being picked on. I just wish I coulda gained some courage and stuck up for him ... in good time though.

Also, this whole Osama Bin Ladden thing has certainly run its course. I don't really have an opinion as to whether I'm happy or sad that he's dead. I mean, I am but I'm not you know? As a lot of people have seen/posted on Facebook/Twitter, Osama died a sinner, and that seriously upsets me. I know he was a terrorist, and he planned 9/11, but does anyone deserve to burn in the pits of hell forever and eternity? Ya know? I just wish we could have reached him somehow. Speaking of reaching...something inside of me wants to just start a new outreach program. I don't know how it's gonna happen...but you bet your botom dollar it will.

The play is over at school, and now I'm stuck at home every day afterschool. I got a YMCA membership, so before summer I'll have my slimmed & muscular body :)

Prom is Saturday, and I'm still not excited for the dance. I'm pree much only excited for dinner/dressing up/bowling/after prom. Yeah, I guess that's kinda bad.

There's really not a whole lot going on in my head right now. Yeah, that was such a lie...haha. I don't know. I guess not a whole lot I'm willing to share with anyone right now, just those select few that are close to me.


PRAYER REQUESTS PLEASE:
If you're reading this and happen to be a believr, please pray for me.
1. I really need a 2nd job to pay for my phone bill/gas/car insurance.
2. I've been treated wrongfully at work, and I just need God to do something there to make it stop.
3. Breakthrough & answers with a certain situation.
4. SELF CONFIDENCE!





Shanks my awesome followers/readers :)
Keep posted, I promise to be blogging more often!


"Hallelujah, for our Lord God almighty reigns. Just and holy, He is worthy: OUR GOD REIGNS."