Family.

I know I haven't blogged in a while, and I really don't like that. But I mean, I'm working on myself...but here's my most recent thoughts.


Family.



Mom.




Dad.



Siblings.



Grandparents.






I love my family. I haven't been spending time with my family lately, and I completely blame it on my senior year. 3 AP classes, advanced math, sports, work, church, college crap. I miss my family. I'm deffinitely a person who hangs out with my family, and enjoys it. Although they can frustrate and/or embarass me: I love 'em. I guess I started realizing how much I missed them lately. I was home this week from work, because I asked for a few days off to get the semester started off right. I sat down for dinner, and it felt weird and awkward to me. It seemed as though my parents didn't want to talk to me, or didn't know how to, and I still feel that way. I want to hang out with my mom: go to dinner, watch movies, play games, do Zumba, but I feel as though she has lost any interest in hanging out with me before I move. I feel like it's because I've been out of the picture/house for so long, she's just started getting used to it, and I don't like that.
I've had some depression here lately, and it's reallyu starting to take a toll on me. I think thats a huge reason why I want my mom/stepdad back in my life. My mom really does help me, and I enjoy having a relationship with her. At one point in time, she was literally my best friend. I miss that, and hope to rebuild that.
I took my 8 year old sister to swim Wednesday, and it was so weird seeing how grown up she is. There have been days the past month, where I've thought to myself "When was the last time I even saw Emma?" I'd go days, literally, without seeing my sister or talking to her. Although she as well drives me crazy, I miss seeing and interacting with her. Anyways, I took her to swim and I really realized how tall she was, how freaky she was, and how beautiful she is becoming...it's so scary seeing how old she's getting. She's like, real tall and everything! The same with my 5 year old brother. He's still snotty, but he's getting smarter and speaking clearer. I don't really talk to my stepdad...and I haven't...but it seems as though it's getting better.



I just needed to get that off my chest. I really miss my parents, and my family in general. This spring break we're going to California and we get to see a set of grandparents (moms side). This really excites me, because I feel like whenever we're around grandparents, our whole family gets closer. I love it!





But anyways, for anyone who reads this, please learn to cherish your family. I never get to see mine. When I do, it's for brief periods, and I feel like CRAP when I leave them to do something else. Family is precious, and it's something many people struggle with not having. Families can build you, shape you, love you, help you and provide for you. What will you do today to show love to your family?











Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It ALWAYS PROTECTS, always TRUSTS, always HOPES, always PERSERVERS. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:48 ish. NIV :)