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People have been asking me to blog lately, so here is me blogging. I'm sure it's fairly obvious, but I've taken quite a fall back from God. I've actually slipped into a depression, and I think it's more on the side of bipolar disorder. I've got a few different sicknesses going on, and I can't cure them. I have tendonitis in both wrists, and some huge self confidence issues. Umph. I think that's all physically/mentally wrong. But I guess on the bright side, I've chosen a college. I'll be heading off to Aquinas College next year, probably majoring in business and minoring in theology or dance, so that I can become a dance instructor one day. I also have cheerleading tryouts on Sunday for this school...I'm pretty sure I"ll make it. I really like the coach there, and the team members: they're so sweeet. Prom was last night: it was awful. I had a lot of fun getting ready (even though it was stresssful), had fun @ dinner with everyone, and had a good time with Zach. We we're there for about an hour, and left. Honeslty, we left because I couldn't handle the truth...we went up to dance, but none of Zach's friends wanted to be around me. So, we decided to leave. We just went to his house and watched a movie and slept. It was nice...having a sleepover. Part of me wishes we would have stayed, because I feel like I wasted $400 and my senior prom, but at the same time, my depression was just so bad that I couldn't stand knowing nobody wanted me there: I had to leave. Tomorrow is senior skip day @ Western, and I think I"m going to participate. I ate this piece of cake 30 minutes ago, and I feel so sick to my stomach. Sometimes I really feel like I"m pointless. Zachry gets angry when I say that, but I really can't help it. I miss who I was, and I hate everything I've become. I think that's it for now. Dissapointing, huh?