Hmph.

Im a bit surprised that I was able to log onto my blog here at shcool. It is currently 10:17 am, and I am sitting in lab 234 supposably (sp) writing my 5 - page play. Well, I already wrote it, and I already finished my descriptive narrative re write for AP English, so what else was I supposed to do?


As I'm sitting here, I've heard tons of conversations just float all around. For some reason, I've been alot more of a listener in this class than a speaker. I dont think its a problem, I just think its more interesting than anything. I hear talk about prom, talk about birthdays and anniversaries, "oreo baseball teams", actors, Google Earth, hockey, and I even hear gossip. Its just some of the most interesting things to hear, actually.


I wonder what people would talk about if Jesus was sitting in this room right now. Would they be talking about the game last night, and who won? Would they be talking about how ugly that girls clothes were this morning? Would they be cussing and swearing at computers? It makes me wonder what that day is going to be like when Jesus returns.


I'm really excited, but I'm also really nervous for some of the people who think they're living right, but aren't. Im not saying I'm living perfect, because I'm not perfect: none of us is. I've come to notice I blog about this alot, but I cant help it because its one of the biggest burdens on my heart. When people think they're going to Heaven because they call themselves Christians. That title has depreciated tons and tons and tons, and its sad. Its such a beautiful thing being a Christian, and I just want EVERYONE to know what its like: being extremely happy, never having to worry about anything because God is there and supportive, I want peopple to feel that never ending love that God gives us FREELY!


Im not sure where this was going ... I know it would have been alot longer, but the bell is going to ring soon and I have to make sure I have everytihng turned in on time ... I'll probably finish this later. But for now, au revoir!






You are more, You are more than my words will ever say. You are Lord, You are Lord, all creation will proclaim. You are here, You are here in Your presence Im made whole. You are God, You are God, of all else I'm letting go!

Brainfarrrrrt.

Well, I guess its not really a brain fart. But I havnt blogged in weeks! Which makes me feel awful /: So I kinda just wanted to letcha know whats up with me:



God is amazing, first and foremost. He's supplied me with SO much lately, and has just been so so so so so faithful! At our MMATP this past Thursday, we had two guitar players & amazing singers leading worship for us ... what an amazing encounter we had with the Lord! I cant wait to see what else He does :) My family is just awesome. We may actually be moving to Michigan, but were not positive yet. I think we find out next week? Even though we were supposed to find out last week ... haha. Im not sure if I wanna move? Or if I dont. I would love to move, because I believe I could do SO much with God up there, and I could make new friends and everything. But watching the seniors walk across the field today? I wanted that to be me ... I'd hate to leave Northwest, I've already been here 6 years; why not finish it off? Guard is good. We have 3 competitions left ... and were gonna beast them, no lie. We went to Western Carolina last weekend, and it was like 32 degrees I believe? Yeah, our uniforms have NO sleeves. It was COLD to say the least. Its been an interesting season, not gonna lie. Im still considering joining winter guard ... but Im not sure if I can afford that; money wise & time wise. Dance has been so amazing this year. Im taking ballet & tap, and after 3 years of dancing, I've found the classes I like the most! In ballet were doing Beauty and the Beast (& for those of you who have seeen my status's about B&TB, thats probably why I've wanted to watch it so much). For tap, were doing Black Horse and a Cherry Tree, that old song: thats good. Haha. I also get to teach the intermidiate class ... It hink thats the name? The 6, 7, and 8 year olds: haha. Their all so so so precious! Its so much fun to be able to help them, and lead them in something Im good at and LOVELOVELOVE doing. Oh yes, boys. I actually have been talking to a boy for the past 3 weeks or so. He's a great guy, and Gods got His hand on the relationship ... we'll see where He takes it :) School has been interesting. Im acing 1st & 2nd period, I probably have a C in 3rd period, and Im still failing AP English ... but Im trying in there! Deffinitely not as hard as I could be ... but I am. Works been ... boring. Haha. Monday, Wednesday and Sunday nights. 5-10 pretty much every night. Plus tomorrow (Saturday) Im working 10:30 - 4:00, and 6:00 - 11:00. Wahooooodie!



Well, I think thats as much as I can get off my mind. If any seniors happen to stumble upon this, I just wanna say:

CONGRATULATIONS SEN11ORS :)
(^Someone by the name of SARAH told me that I put 2010, instead of 2011, so now I feel like an idiot ... but thanks Sarah :))





That is alll;

Im running to your arms, Im running to your arms. The riches of your love, will always be enough. NOTHING compares to Your embrace. Light of the world, forever reign!

This just stinks.

I think I may have, well possibly, stated this in EVERY OTHER BLOG I'VE EVER POSTED.



I would rather have someone claim to not be a Christian, than have them claim to be a Christian and live the wrong lifestlye.





I get on Facebook, and see TONS of people that have things in their "about me" or have status's about God / Jesus / Christian music lycirs. I scroll down and see things that say "kicka***, b****" and everything else you can imagine: it tears me apart and makes me so angry. Helllllo somebody, that RIGHT THERE is what gives Christians bad names!



Not only that, the people I see doing this, are those going around doing un Godly things. I see it: daily. There are people who probably dont think about it, but its interesting: because thos are the things I notice daily. It might sound mean that I say that, but its the truth. I would rather people claim to not believe in God, than live the wrong lifestlye. Even that can help save them more, than lying and living in sin you know?


The name of a "Christian" is being depreciated daily. Through movies, the media, and more than anything: teenagers. Obviously less and less teenagers are clamining to be Christians, which is bad in itself. But on top of that, those who are claiming to worship the king, wont live right. So those who are interested in becoming a Christian, see that 1 Christian thats nto living right, and it turns the non - bleiever away: ITS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH! WE COULD BE SAVING SOULS!




That is my biggest thing. So many souls to save. When I wakl around school, I just beg God to let me save people. So far, He's letting me. I want that for others too, because I know thats why were here: to make His name known!




I've been wanting to do this for awhile, but now is literally the only time Ive had to blog. This all just flowed out of me ... my apologizes for mispelled words, or me going off on tangents.





Forever I will tell You, yeah I'll scream until it hurts. That I cant live without You, You are Heaven I am earth. And even from the moment that You saved my life I knew: that I'll ALWAYS love you.

Tonight.

I miss blogging. I've literally had NO time. But anyways;




Tonight I was blessed with the opportunity to be a student teacher at my dance studio. It probably doesnt seem like a huge deal, but to me it is. I've ALWAYS loved dancing. I remember when I was younger, making up dances to whatever music I could find. My friend Brenda told me "Yeah, you've got the point of a dancer" (referring to my toes, ha). I didnt start dancing until I was in 4th grade.

Then when we moved to North Carolina, I didnt start dancing until 10th grade again, because I was so angry that we had to move. My 10th grade year, I took tap and jazz. This year, 11th grade, Im taking tap and ballet/lyrical.



So anyways, I went to the class today, really not knowing what to expect from a bunch of 6 - 10 year olds. But man was I in for a treat! Those little girls were just the cutest bundles of joy ever! They were all so energetic, and sweet: so precious! It was also just so much fun to be able to help them with something I love so much: which is dance :)

I've been begging God for hinge moments lately, and I believe this is another one that I've recieved. Im asking that God would supply me the patience, endurance, and love to pour into these girls. Even though their young, I can still do it, haha.






GOD IS AMAZING, cliche, but true :)





I've given my life to the ONLY One who makes the moon reflect the sun. Every starry night, that was His design. I've given my life to the ONLY Son who was and is and yet to come. Let the praises ring: He is everything!

Just a simple update!

So, its actually been pretty interesting you see.

Back before I went to Verge camp, whenever people would hate on me about God, I'd be SO rude about it: and I would completely veer (vere?) off on them and lash out right? Well lately, somethings COMPLETELY changed!




I've had alot of "haters", if you will, lately on Facebook / Formspring / and even my blog! But its interesting, because it doesnt phase me anymore. I mean, of course Im a bit hurt and a bit upset: but I know thats just the devil trying to strangle me, and pull me down. HAHAHHAA SUCKKA; IT AINT WORKIN' THIS TIME! (As Pastor Terri Furr says "Not me, not today, NOT ANYMORE!") Its just so awesome how I can finally respond in a Godly way to these people who are eithr faithless, hopeless, or lost. Its SUCH A BLESSING! I've been begging God for opportunity lately, and I truly feel like this has just been test after test, but some also attacks.


This is going to be really short, but I just wanted everyone to know THAT I, SAMANTHA ELIZABETH ALVARADO AM A JESUS FREAK. ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, ALWAYS WILL BE: FROM NOW UNTIL I MEET MY DADDY IN THE SKY; I WILL WORSHIP AND PRAISE HIM & HIM ALONE.



End of public anouncment :)




Indescribable, uncontanable: You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name - You are AMAZING God!

So much to say.

Today is September 11th, 2010 - 9 years after the hijacked planes were crashed into the twin towers in New York city. My heart definitely goes out to those who lost family members, co-workers, boss's, friends, loved ones, children, brothers, sisters, parents, and grandparents. Last weekend we had a special guest come to church to preach the word. His name was Sujo John: Sujo was in the North tower when the planes crashed.

I remember his story so clearly, it was a terrifying one indeed. (Just to sum it up a bit) he was in the North tower when the plane struck, and his wife was in the other tower when the second plane struck. Sujo made it out safely, and was able to pray with a man. One thing that stood out to me the most: was the fact that he was calling out to the almighty God when he was stuck in the rubble. Not Allah, not Buddha, not a cow: nobody but God.

God is good, let me just start by saying that. Yes, many lives were taken during the September 11th attack: but I know many lives have been saved since then as well. Sujo and his 4 month pregnant wife were both out of the towers, and saved from the accident thanks to Jesus. Sujos story impacts many around the nation, and saves souls daily.

America has just lost SO much faith in the Lord, which is extremely obvious. I saw a billboard the other day that said "One nation, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all". Now, whats wrong with that? To any non Christian bystander, Im sure they wouldnt even notice whats missing. Every morning when I say the pledge of allegiance, thats the part that I say with ALL my heart. "One nation, UNDER GOD". I still believe that, and I know others do to: I just wish some of us would start acting like it. I have 2 things Im trying to accomplish through this blog, and so they're going to run together. Hopefullly it makes sense :)



There are many americans who go to church, and claim to be Christians: but they dont live the right life. I know MANY of those people, and it bugs the mess out of me: let me be honest. I have a friend, who set his Facebook status as this:

"lol, some people have all of this stuff about Jesus on their profiles...but then I scroll down and see F-bombs, GD, all this filthy crap, and secular supporting mess..what the heck is wrong with you? you're seriously not following the same Jesus who I know" - Josh Vernon.

I love that! Its so true! For the longest time, I had tried to find a way to put that. I had made my Facebook status something like that at one point, and it offended many. I had wondered what I said wrong, then I realized I didnt say anything wrong: it was the Holy Spirit convicting those people, and they just didnt want to admit it! Im so thankful God works in that way. That He can convict, and sometimes those folks just dont understand it.

My friend Chessa asked me the other day "How many people do you want to have?" (Referring to our weekly Meet me at the Pole) & I said "The entire school" - and I wasnt kidding. This year, my goal is to reach as many people as possible. I find myself praying CONSTANTLY during the day, which Ive never done before. I find myself talking about God CONSTANTLY during the day, which Ive also never done before. God is just so good, and He's already changing Northwest. Praise the Lordddd :)




If My people who are called by My name shall humble themselves and pray, and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways; then I will hear from Heaven, forgive their sins, and heal their land.

READ ALL ABOUT IT.

Alright. So, I was at lunch last Friday right? The bell had rang, and we were all getting up and headed back to class. All of a sudden, I hear "BAND THUD CLUNK" and a see a fellow classmate on the floor, surrounded by boys laughing at him. Now this, straight broke my heart.

God, for one, has really begun to break my heart for the things that break is. He's truly softened my heart, and changed me: which I love. I didnt go help him or anything, because I was honestly too scared. When we went back upstairs and were walkking down the halls, the guys laughing at him were pushing him into the walls. The only thing I said was "Alright guys, lets stop being immature". Thinking back on this, I really wish I would have stepped in and done something. I kept praying for opportunities at school, and I believe that was one I passed up.

We had read a story in AP English about a woman who was stabbed 3 times and killed. But the kicker, was the fact that 38 people witnessed the murder and never called the police. The point of the story, was that becaues so many people saw: they all relied on the other person to call, so they wouldnt have to do it due to fear. That really made me think about Friday, and I think thats how I was. I was expecting someonelse to stand up for him, so I wouldnt have too. But I know God has me at Northwest for a reason: I know he wants me to change it. It was just such a striking moment. I thank God for it, but I also just cant believe I passed it up.

Friday after school, I was standing in the parking lot waiting to leave. Someone from work called me about working that night, so I was on the phone with her. When I looked up, there was a girl stopped in front of me waiting to leave the parking lot. She looked at me, and said "Oh that b****". I was extremely shocked, honestly. Of course it hurt my feelings at first, but then I realized who am I to care what she thinks? Im a child of God. Im smart, beautiful, and forgiven. As I was driving home I was really upset over this, and kept thinking to myself "What did I seriously do to make someone call me that?" As she was pulling into another neighborhood, the person she was driving home flicked me off, and that hurt me as well. I tried my best not to show it, because I had someonelse in the car with me, but I really wanted to cry.

As soon as I got home I started talking to 2 people I know I can trust: Jessica Phillips & Kiersten Jacobs. Love them! They both truly just helped me get through that, and I realized it was just the devil trying to get at me: and after I actually realized it, I calmed down. Because I know who I am, and I know what he was trying to do: he DID NOT suceed :)

As a more positive note on this akward post, I was in 1st period the other day. I overheard my teacher say to another student "I dont know, its just something about this year. It seems less ... stressful. Just something about this year ..." The first thing in my head? Yepp, thats God working at Northwest! How exciting huh?




My school is such a dark place, and I hadnt realized it until this year. I'd always heard it was, but I never noticed it. But now, Im just so ... aware of it. Walking down the hallways, I can feel the demonic presence and its scary. Everyday when I walk down the halls, I have to pray for safety & I ask God to just lead me to people. I know God has amazing things for my school. He's already given me visions; I just cant wait to find the people to help me put those visions into action :)




Wanna die, but I dont. Wanna cry, but I wont. I've come too far to turn back now; I am redeemed my lifes been bought.