So many people have asked me lately: "Arn't you nervous? Are you gonna miss NC? Are youc oming back? Are you even sad?" My only response has been: "No, Im excited." But boy have I lied.
I came home tonight from diner with 2 good friends of mine, to see the "FOR SALE" sign in our yard. Needless to say, it hit me.
IMMA MISS:
THE NORTHWEST CABARRUS TROJAN REGIMENT. Northwest in general. The Refuge. Pastors Eric/Amanda/Porter/Marvin/David/Nathan/Darr. Lets Dance Studio. First Assembly. Vertical. AnnaElyse. Kelsey. Leah. Justin. Tylor. Colin. Austin. Cody. Kayla. Auriel. Julia. Ashley. Shannon. Shaniqua. My big brother, Nicholas McFalls. Jessica. Bekah. BBarb. Northwest guard. Warm weather. Competitions. Verge. Crazy sleepovers. Parades. Inside jokes. Whattaburger. Jay's loud truck @ 10:30pm. Serry Chemon Lundrop. CHICKFILA. Wearing sandals in November. DAN PENTZ! Bekah Efird <3 Rass, & her theatre classes. My pink bedroom. Hanging out with the band geeks/drumline. AP English. Having a pool 300 steps away. North Carolinians. Southern accents. Rednecks. CAMO !$%& My friends. My class. Haley Stewart. Bobbi Jo Rosser, and her house alarms. Band parties. Concord Mills / Northlake. Tsunami. Texas Land & Cattle.
- This isn't even the start of everything.
Dont get me wrong, I cant wait to go. I know its the will of God on my life right now, and I've declared many times: "Let YOUR will be done in my life, not mine." He's letting it be done. Im nervous, Im scared, Im terrified, Im frightened, Im stoked, Im pumped, Im clueless, Im ... emotionally wrecked. But you know what? God'll keep me safe, and I know that. I just cant help but realize how scary this is for me. I mean, everyone asks me: "Your gonna be new, and nobody is gonna know you. Arn't you scared?" I mean, yeah dude. Like I told Colin, Im a short person ... whos gonna wanna talk to the new short girl right? Im sure they'll mistake me as a freshman anyways. But whatever. I've always been a social butterfly, and I hear I have a bright personality: I know God will help me. But Im nervous ... oh so nervous. And anxious ... and sad ... but excited. And prepared, but not emotionally.
January 17th, I'll be saying goodbye to North Carolina.
I'm super proud of you and I have cried more than once when I think about how much I will miss you. But I am also excited for you. I will be praying for you and secretly hoping you will come back to visit often! Who else will I hang out with at Starbucks :( . . . I love you Sammy and I REALLY your honesty in this post.
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