All Along.

Its not everything it seems - the world and its dreams. Slipping like water through my hands, tonight. All the things I thought would fill me up, left me empty here - and now I know why. All along I was looking for something else, Your something else. All along I was looking for something more Your so much more. I finally found what I could never see before, You've always been the one that I was looking for. All of my castles in the sand, washed away again. And Im left back where I began - tonight. The only thing that could ever fill me up has been right in front of me: all the time.

Im not quite sure why I wrote this. I was just listening to the song All Along, by Remedy Drive. I love that song. Lately, the devil has really been messing with me: and its driving me insane. Last week, I felt something strong from God, and the devil is trying to take that from me. He's making me feel extremely insecure, and making me feel worthless and alone. Its awful, to be quite frank. But this song, All Along, helps me find some closure. "All along I was looking for something else, Your something else. I've finally found what I could never see before, You've always been the one that I was looking for." I just love that. It reminds me that I have him, and that I dont always need approval from others. Today at work, there is a girl I work with who gives off the vibe she doesn't like me. In a way, I'll admit, I do try to please everyone. I mean, I dont suck up just to get them to love me, but I want people to like me. Hmm, that sounds kinda bad. I mean, I just dont want to give people a reason not to like me, You know? But anyways, it hurt my feelings because she was being rude to me. Not super rude, but You could just tell she was being rude. Anyways, Gods securing me & thats alllllll I need.