Faith.

So, for a while I was going through a really difficult time. But I'm finally overcoming it.

While I was in Traverse City this past weekend, Zachary and I had a deep discussion about our relationship. He asked me to be his girlfriend, and I was terrified to say yes. But I felt like something was pushing me towards it, so I said yes. Afterwards, I felt this awful tugging at my heart saying "WHY DID YOU DO THAT? It was so wrong!" But I heard a sweet voice say to me "Psalm 6". So I read it, and this is what it says:

Please God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed. Treat me nice for a change; I'm so starved for affection. Can't you see I'm black and blue, and soul? God, how long will it take for you to let up? Break in, God, and break up this fight; if you love me at all, get me out of here. I'm no good to you dead, am I? I can't sing in your choir if I'm buried in some tomb! I'm tired of all this-so tired. My bed has been floating forty days and nights on the flood of my tears. My mattress is soaked, soggy with tears. The sockets of my eyes are black holes; nearly blind, I squint and grope. Get out of here, you devil's crew: at last my God has heard my sobs. My requests have all been granted, my prayers are answered. Cowards, my enemies disappear. Disgraced, they turn tail and run.

I was so afraid that the voice yelling at me was God, but once He led me to that verse, I knew it was the devil; because the voices went away after I read it. It just goes to show that when you're faithful through the trials, God always blesses us and saves us.


:)